After yesterday’s events it really makes me realize how fragile life really is. One of my best friends was in a horrific car accident at around 4 in the morning. She was in surgery all day yesterday and is currently in the highest level of icu. 

I’ve never been so scared of the unknown in my entire life. All I can do is wait. And that is the hardest thing for me to do. I hate how things can just fall apart so fast. I don’t even think it has fully hit me yet. All we could do was support her family as much as possible and try to keep each other from falling apart in the waiting room. 

I just want her to wake up. She needs to be okay…. I don’t know what I would do without her. 

Ashley you are an incredible, beautiful human and you are stronger than you know. We are all here for you, no matter how long the recovery. Just wake up please. We need you. 

And to everyone else, please don’t ever take life for granted. It’s a crazy world and you never know when something will turn your world upside down. Please keep your thoughts for her. 

<3 

“early in the morning, feet stuck on the ground, gotta fix my cup of caffeine and i’m turning things around…”

these lyrics from william beckett’s newest ep really inspired me this morning. Lately I have felt really stuck and pulled into numerous directions. I want so many things out of life, and sometimes it’s hard for me to really focus all of my energy on one. 

I know it’s a typical thing for someone in there early 20’s to be saying, but I just don’t want to get too far into my life and realize I’m not living and doing what makes me the happiest. If that means I don’t make tons of money, I’m fine with that as long as I’m not stuck in a job where I don’t belong. But that’s really how I feel. I’ve taken the initiative and removed myself from any negative situation that’s been bringing me down lately and I’m trying to just focus on what I love. 

I’ve had a hard time expressing myself through written words as I used to, but I think I’m finally breaking through the fog and I couldn’t be more excited. 

I can’t help but be excited for the future, no matter how uncertain it is. I’m pretty lucky for a 21 year old to have what I have in my hands, endless opportunities. <3 Happy tuesday!